well this sucks...

so today i didn't have to do the whole double job thing. this is how my tuesdays and thursdays go....8 am wake up and take care of my neighbor's 6 month old baby. 9.30 leave him with my gma and walk to work(crap ass daycare 6 long blocks away). 1 pm come home and take care of the baby then at 4/5 pm his big sister comes to pick him up. and that's how i work 2 jobs at once. well today i was supposed to get paid cuz it's thursday...but the lady wasn't there. she went to do...who knows what. so no pay check for me. and it sucks cuz i want to pay mii h0m3guuRl UuRkk@ for my bs ticket. sorry biatch. i'm pretty sure i'll get my paycheck tuesday. oh and my dad lost his job so he's at home 24/7...JOY..NOT!! so now we get to hang out everyday...and he makes me clean and do shit. ARGH! oh and i dont sleep well anymore. so i'm always tired and just feel like shit. my dad gave me the flu...so now i'm also sneezy and coughing and it just makes things worse. BLEH! tired...
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shit i gotta buy list

so these are things i need to buy SOON

RANDOM!!!!!!

so um.... yeah....haha. i basically have a real big desire to get a tattoo right now. i've been googling tattoos and looking at some people's ugly ass tats....sorry tribal tattoos are only cool if you're actually from a tribe....so all you beef heads should stop getting bands....they're gross. and some of the quality of the art....not too good. like if i'm gonna be dumb enough to put a well known character on my body for the rest of my life...it better look identical to the actual cartoon. not some tj wanna be version where the colors are all screwed up. well this is one of the tattoos i want.

looks super retarded and the quality haha isn't great but that's exactly how it's supposed to come out. it's from an AMAZING movie called Hedwig and the Angry Inch (a movie about my 2 favorite things....music and trannies). highly recommended to the non homophobic. it contains graphic scenes. but it basicallly (the pic) is from a song called the origin of love. and it says we were born as 2 in one(man and man, woman and woman, or woman and man)...we originally were attached to our true love and that we were split in 2 and now we have to find our true love again so we can be one once again. sounds retarded the way i put it. but it's a great story/message. and while browsing the web i found a girl's tribute to her grandmother....it was her gma's signature and her birth and death dates. i originally wanted my grandparents on my wrist...but it's really complicated...and i dont think i can have that much ink and "still be accepted into society"....so i'm debating. i like the signature idea...but i also want pics...or just nicknames in the back of my neck(like what we called my gpa). so first thing i'm getting once i get my id....is my tattoo. so i better think about what i'm gonna do quick. haha.
peace love and ink
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HOORAY!!!

so my baby's back! yes my laptop was in the emergency room and dr. geek squad took great care of him for the past month cuz we couldn't pay his medical bill. poor baby. well he's back so that means more late night blabbing about nothing while i can't sleep. it also means i'll be more in touch with random gossip noone cares about haha. yay! i guess it's all for now...i have to work tomorrow at my hell hole of a job...i dont love kids as much as i used to...but it's ok.
xoxo
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i am on drugs....

...not really but i feel like it. i'm like incredibly hyper and keep doing random things. OK! soo........last time i blogged was like A MILLION years ago!! not really i'm not that old. but it feels like it. so i now work at a stupid daycare and i pretty much loved kids till i had to go there. it super sucks cuz i only work 6 hours a week...but i get 10 an hour...which i love. but next month i have to work EVERYDAY!!! i'm gonna shoot myself. i only worked 3 hours today and i feel DRAINED! maybe it's because i went to sleep at like midnight...woke up at 6....then at 6.30...then at 7....then at 7.20...so i could shower and blow dry my hair cuz i'm sick. then i get to the daycare and there's already kids crying. so they shove kids in my arms so i can make them stop. and i got boogers on my sweater. talk about YUMMY!!! and then i have to go get my fingerprints taken cuz she told about some guy that like had sex with his student....and idk why that has anything to do with fingerprints. but i think she thinks i'm like a baby rapist....which i'm totally not. oh then she screames at me and was like why dont you have an id and i was like idk where my birth certificate is. and she's like well you're walking around like an illegal immigrant without any documentation. so now i have to get an id...go to all these classes and then take classes at school and omg so much shit. i am stressed beyond control. i need a better job haha. i need to take a cpr class read a whole book thing get my fingerprints taken get an id get a tb test...hate shots...take a child development class and a dance class and on top of that take all my other required classes. i'm honestly gonna shoot myself by the end of the month....