no more school

alright. well i'm SUPER bored with nothing to do...it sucks. still looking for jobs. my neighbor's daycare needs help. so i'm gonna try and do that, i dont want to jynx it. then i need to sell my books and get like $20 for both the books when i spend like $120 originally. thanks smc. and i need to buy like 9 gifts. i know what i'm getting half the people. i just dont know how to get it. well this morning was cool, my neighbor took me and my 3 sisters out to breakfast/lunch at some chinese food place. that was fun, then we came home to be bored. everyone's doing something today :( my neighbor's son peed on our couch...he's 3. luckly my dad left when we came back.

random but i love tim. he's like a papa bear. so yeah. now i have no more school. I'm thinking of going and living with my aunt till spring semester starts. she'll pay me to work at her daycare. which i need and my cousin will help me learn to drive. so it's a win win situation except i'll miss my bf and the few friends i have. my aunt's house is also very drama full...which i'm not too fond of....so idk what to do. if a job doesn't come soon i'll have to leave :/

idk what to do anymore

where do i even start? alright i REALLY need a job. i gotta pay for schooling and help my mom pay bills. or help my mom start paying some bills. i'm honestly going crazy without a job. i'm really tempted to go live in a hell hole with my aunt to be able to get a job. she runs a daycare and i'd have to LIVE with her. cuz she lives in newbury park and i technically shouldn't be driving. she said i could go to school out there too. but i wouldn't be able to handle life out there. it's too much fighting and angre. so anyone out there looking for an assistant, receptionist, ANYTHING. i'm definately available

crying over spilt milk

so this a rant..you dont have to read i just need to type this out. ok so my mom got me a phone may 2007. my mom being the poor mexican she is we had to get some free phones...everyone knows the free ones are the ugly cheap ones...so that's what i got the sanyo scp-3100. for those who dont know what that means...it's this phone

no seriously that's my phone. i know it's sad. all that's missing are my scratch and dents and my antenna wont even stay in half the time...it's horrible. so since that day i've been on sprint.com every day in hopes to convince my mom to get me a new one. so of course when i stumbled onto the LG rumor, it was love at first sight. it's little parallel lines and slide out keyboard. i loved it in white considering this is 2007 it was either that ugly black or white. so when i saw online that they were green and blue i melted inside. considering blue is one of my fav colors. so of course i would tell my best friend about the phone of my dream besides the fact that they started commercials about 3 months after i showed her. oh yeah this is my dream phone

cute right? anyways. so fast forward to what...thursday. yeah so thursday's our ritual hang out day for me my bf, best friend and guy best friend. but my best friend couldn't hang out cuz she was going to get her new phone...my dream phone. how she was getting it i dont want to talk about cuz it's none of my bussiness...plus it's a long story and i kinda dont care cuz she can do what she wants. but yeah...so she text me being like this text is from my new phone....i broke down. i threw my phone across my house...it pretty much exploded and a bawled. my bf was luckly with me and had to calm me down cuz till this day i still throw my phone when she texts me. but she wants to show off her phone to everyone...i would too. but i dont want to see her or her new phone cuz i will start to cry...i know it's pathetic. and it sucks cuz she's leaving the 18th and will be gone for 3 weeks. like i wanted to see her before she left. but now i just can't bring myself to do it. i walked by her house on thursday night and i had to close my eyes and put my phone in my pocket. i was just heart broken. then i was like it's ok heather...yes i talk to myself...you just have to get a better phone...but sprint doesnt have any better ones. cuz i'm not into touch screens plus the instinct is boring my uncle has it. well here's the rant in my other fav color...RED!

yeah. so i was like no biggie. heather you just get the rant. the rumor's so last year...but i get another text from my bff that i still haven't replied to yet..."my mom got the rant." so i threw my phone again and didnt reply to her text and started crying...again....it's been a bad 3 days so far. idk everytime she texts me i cant find the strength to text her back...i was supposed to get the same exact phone she now holds in her hand for christmas...now i dont even want anything. idk what to do :/ i need a new phone to come out just for me one that's amazing and fierce. so i can stop crying and feeling hurt that she would get the phone i've been bitching about for more then a year. i guess that's what i get for being poor.
-h2

FINALLY!

yeah so guess who won paris hilton's my new bff...BRITT! finally someone i love wins. it was a masquerade...both girls got into seperate cars. one got sent to the party...britt..and the other to an empty hotel room...vanessa

that's her crying all alone.

that's her on her last "one on one" with paris. i know she's creepy right!

thats paris happily choosing britt. too bad paris is friends with like all of the peole on the show now. oh well.
good job britt. you're my fav
-h2